Thursday, September 16, 2010

a rhyme and a melody

My little man woke me last night, and since he's been sick this week, I got up and rocked him back to sleep.  I didn't go back to sleep so quickly, as I was thinking and praying for a dear, dear friend of mine. 
Unfortunately this week has not been a good one for her, as she suffered a miscarriage with their sweet second child.  I know that God will give me the words when I can't find them, but in this case, "I'm sorry" seemed so puny, I could hardly bring myself to utter it.  I am devastated for her, and I'm sure on the outside she is trying to be strong, but I know her heart is hurting.  It's so easy for Satan to attack us when we're down, and I know that there's a million 'what if's' going through her head...  I hope she knows that there is nothing she could have done better or different that would have saved that baby...  and even so, God has a plan and it is to prosper us, and never to forsake us.  He knitted that baby perfectly inside your womb, and through Satan's guile, something went wrong.  Satan has so many devilish ways to stab at us--it isn't fair that something so terrible should befall someone so innocent.

A friend I was introduced to in college had the misfortune of this happening to him and his wife with their first pregnancy and he wrote a song for their angel baby.  It was playing over and over in my head last night and I just wanted to share it, as he's now pretty well-known in the Christian music world and this song is on his little known, very first album, "Walk."  His name is Andrew Peterson and this is his song, "Lullaby".

Well, I haven't got a lot to offer
Just a rhyme and a melody
But I promised I'd write if it took all night
A lullaby for thee

  And they say there ain't no sleeping in heaven
But baby, that don't mean that you can't dream
So when you close your eyes
Know your mother and I
Pray the Lord your little soul to keep
And we never got a chance to hold you
And we never got to tell you goodnight
So we hope you can hear as Jesus cradles you near
Baby, this is your lullaby

So are you running with the angels?
Are you singing with the saints?
Are you throwing a ball against a heavenly wall
Maybe swinging on the pearly gates?

Well there's so much love between us
And so much that I wanna say
I wanna ramble awhile with my beautiful child
Baby, I can hardly wait... 

And they say there ain't no sleeping in heaven
But baby, that don't mean that you can't dream
So when you close your eyes
Know your mother and I
Pray the Lord your little soul to keep
And we never got a chance to hold you
And we never got to tell you goodnight
So we hope you can hear as Jesus cradles you near
Baby, this is your lullaby
Yes, we hope you can hear as Jesus cradles you near
'Cause Darlin, this is your lullaby...
 

Of course, last night, as I lay in bed, my thoughts were so eloquent and I knew exactly what I wanted to say, and now, I can't remember any of it.  Guess I need a notepad by the bed.  So now, even as my words are not a rhyme and a melody, I hope she knows that they are sincere.  She is the best friend I've got, and I'd do anything for her.  I will hold your head up when you can't...  I will paint your walls and feed your little man...  We will run and not grow weary... and face this world together.  I love you Sister.  Praying for you and praising God for your life, Mama.

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